Update and Whining

I haven't posted anything for quite awhile because my computer died on me. Hoping to get it back on track in the coming week so I can load my new pictures. Brian is gone this week doing a control burn around Zions Park and Kylie has 3 days off of school for parent teacher conferences. I am working part-time at the law firm again and have had a really hard time going back. It stresses me out so much trying to figure out how to shuffle my child around. I should be home taking care of her! I put out the energy that I needed another $1,000 a month to put on Brian's student loan...and this job popped up. Working part-time I'll make about $1,000 a month. I've been really depressed since I started working, and now I can add anxiety to the list too, along with not sleeping at night. I keep telling myself to buck up and dig in and do what needs to be done. Brian and I were going to start trying for another baby, but now that's on hold. This loan is so overwhelming, even though we're living with his parents and saving tons of money. Sometimes we wonder if we made the right choice coming back to Utah and taking a 40% pay cut. We've been really unhappy in our current ward (no one will talk to us, let alone be our friends!) and there are no kids for Kylie to play with. Louisiana was hard, but I learned how to be happy and had the most amazing friends. Of course if I was still living there I wouldn't look on it so favorably. This move back to Utah has been very different than I thought it would be. It really is better for Kylie, all things considered. It's been great being around family again, and I'm really excited for the holidays. And we are loving the season changes! Kylie is so excited for snow.